I´m not in the mood right now...
I will... soon... when I start to feel better...
I´m sorry .___. *feels really depressed these days*
Have you ever had the feeling of everything going bad in your life?
You arranged something for someone - for example birthday - and one day before the event you find out, that everything you did was for nothing, that the person suddenly intends to do something totally different, even though he/she said, not to do anything...
There were a lot of things like that happening to me in the last weeks... and are still happening.
And the newest one made me feel really down, because I was planning it for quite some time...
Everything I do is for nothing...
I don´t want to do anything anymore... everything´s for nothing... but I am still stupid enough to try it over and over again... why?!?!
The only happy event, that happened to me in th last months:
There is this friend of mine, a really dear friend, saying to me, she wants to give me a game I would like to have as a gift - out of nowhere
Can you believe this?!?!
That´s the first time getting a gift out of nowhere ;___;
It makes me cry, really and I haven´t cried for a long time...
Thank you so much ;_____;








life's has its up n down as u know, maybe u r in the bottom now, but it will be ok soon enough...
sometimes things just happening out of our control, it can be helped...
hang on
und wie gehts dir? immer noch mies?
hast deinen b-day gut rumgebracht? ^^
Mir geht's ganz gut, auch, wenn ich die Sonne vermisse. Ich will endlich wieder besseres Wetter. Vor allem, weil dieser miese Schneefall mir meinen B-day vermiest hat. Ich bin zum Tanzen eingeladen worden, aber das hat leider nicht geklappt, weil es einfach net aufhören wollte zu schneien... jetzt mussten wir es zum Dritten mal verschieben *seufz*
Und was machst du grad so??
aba zur zeit wirds ja besser, jetzt scheint die untertags wenigstens en paar stunden und es wir WÄRMER >__<
hab mich so gefreut dich endlich im icq mal wieder zu sehn ^___^
Ich auch ^_^ bist du morgen irgendwann wieder on??